~A Little Light Is all I Need~

So this post started out on an entirely different note. In fact it was going to be a copy and paste post (Which I will do, another day), but that’s out the window now, thanks to the song that I’m currently listening to. On repeat.

LOVE

A word that comes and goes

But few people really know

What it means to Love Somebody

LOVE

Though the tears may fade away

I’m so glad your Love will Stay

‘cos I love you.

And you showed me Jesus

“What it really means to Love”

It gets deeper.

The nights that I’ve cried you Love me

When I should have died you Love me

I’ll Never know why you love me

(But I’m grateful Jesus)

When all hope is gone you Love me

You gave me a song that you Love me.

Now I can go on, ‘cos you Love me

And Now I know what it really means to LOVE.

Music and the events in one’s life. I remember Crying and trembling while singing this song at the top of my voice repeatedly in the bathroom after a huge fight with my ex. He had hit me- and of course the only person I turned in the bathroom was Jesus. I told myself love wasn’t outside the bathroom door- It was in me, Through Jesus. I didn’t need his fake love. *hissss

So I’ve been moody in the last two days, coupled with the fact that I’m having my allergy on another level.

But tomorrow is Friday.

And with some light from Kirk and Angie.

I say "Damn the mood!"

My Sunshine has come and there’s No more rain in my clouds, ‘’cos I’m all cried out!- Go Angie!

Tweet Music Friday Tweeps...... (Shona, Ms Jayla, Funms, Kookie, VimfromZim, Juiceegirl, bumight Kemberly, And our very own twudes debuting this Friday – Haven’t sent them the memo though. Iamcerberus and medianemesis)

Music feeds my Soul........Have a great weekend people!

& lets #lightupnigeria!

PS: I see Blogsvillie is slowly getting out of it's recession.

This is A Test

Scores to be awarded in percentages.
On a scale of 1 - 10, rate the following:

1. Your way of life, in terms of doing right.
2. Your relationship with family
3. Your relationships with friends and colleagues.
4.Your love life.
5. Your career/ School or both
6. Your happiness
7. Your being content.
8. Your dreams- if you have any
9. Your ability to seize an opportunity
10.Your choices.

Submit all scores to yourself- 70% and above is an A.

Your next step depends on the your overall score.

Make sure you test yourself to day.

PS: fooling around with my mobile device- just making sure I can post from it.
But on a serious note. Get TESTED!
Sent from my BlackBerry wireless device from MTN

Dividends Of Labour

“~Suiris~”

“~Suiris~”..........huh?

Last time I checked it was ~Sirius~

She seriously can’t be calling me, can she?.

“~Suiris~”............Uhmmm, me?

Yes you...........why the lost look?.........you can’t have that look now, it’s 8 hours away from your runway show, every second counts.

Oh-kay.

A bit confused- I was so sure those were background dreams, I actually haven’t birth “House of Double O” yet.

My goodness it’s a freaking Tuesday and I’m supposed to be getting ready for work- who is she and what the hell is she talking about.

I must be dreaming...........or so I thought.

Until.

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"~Iris~"

Oh no...........Not again!

"~Iris~"...............

"~Iris~"............

Uhmmmm......me?

"Not you, Me!"

Why on earth is he yelling?

Can't he see I am awake, no need to end my hearing ability.

"Of course you...................... what do you mean by me?"

I can hear you loud and clear!

"If I have to pour a glass of cold water all over you to get you out of whatever zone you are in...............I WILL!"

Get up...........we have a plane to fly in 4hrs.

Right!, I say...............

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"~Sirius~"......Did I hear that right?

Somebody actually gets it right.

You don't say.

"~Sirius~"

I actually recognize the Voice and face.

~The Mister~

Smiling................

”Yes baby”. As I try to wake up.

"Happy Birthday........."

I look at the time, it’s 2:00am

"Thank you" I shy away

“I Love you Birthday girl”................”Love you too”

I fall right back to sleep

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I’ve always wondered what my life would have been like if I had made different life changing decisions.

I don’t regret anything that has happened to me.

In fact..........I believe the path I walk (even though I might be a late bloomer in some aspects of my life) I believe it is the best path for me.

And I know this because God walks with me.

And to Him I am eternally grateful and thankful for my Life.

His Grace is indeed Sufficient for me.

I have grown a lot in the last one year.

Thanks to the many battles I had to face- I defeated you all! He he he

And also the people who were patient enough with me whilst I learnt the new things they taught me.

It’s my day today.............

And I am HAPPY!

PS: The Mister did the most amazing thing ever! Remember how I cried about my new makeup that got stolen 2 months ago, make up I had just invested in from my last trip- well, he went out and bought every single item back with a cute purse to put them all in! And what moved me was the fact that after his research- he handpicked every item from the store himself- he didn’t just let anybody bring stuff to him to select, he went to the stores and picked them himself

So today it's me, him, my BlackBerry and my new Make up!

I mean, What more could a girl want?

In My Head.....

Driving behind a bus with a sticker that says

"EDITIOR WANTED?........For your books, Magazines, Newspaper. Call......"

Yah......And you can't spell editor.
I hope people I know never come across anything you have to edit.

Caught up with an old pal on IM.
He freaked me out.
He'd like to marry me.
Ummmh......dude I've known you for 8years.
Where on earth did that come from?


I got a suprise on sunday.
The Mister got me a sexy gadget.
I'm about to become a CrackB addict.

Perfect Birthday gift if you ask me.
But my birthday is not until another 10days.
Now I'm excited!

I've always wondered why they say "For better or for worse"
Not anymore.

My ex called.

He went to pay for his girlfriend's engagement ring.
But he broke down.
Says the ring was for the wrong girl.
It's a tad bit late now...........I'm gone.

I'm ready for change.......

I'm not Scared anymore.......

Music is indeed good medicince for your soul.

Listening to:

"Let's stay together, Loving you whether, the
Times are good or bad, happy or sad"
                                                                - Al Green 

Shona, Funms, Kookie and Ms Jayla put me in the zone..........

Tweet Friday Girls!

How Low can you go?

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Blog hopping as I usually do,

I read this.

Had me thinking about people in relationships, and why they had to do all sorts of shameful nonsense only to fulfill their selfish desires.

Fair enough dude eventually told the truth about his feelings, after letting things get deep between them. Sucks if you ask me.

In other cases,

You'd have people who would just let things go on, keep you with them and keep thinking about the other person.

Or his type. 

Or the ones who would try to keep the both of you.

Or the ones who get the message and move on after fighting it.

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I have two friends who went through different scenarios.....Story for another day.

A case of an ex and a cheating  boyfriend.

With the cheating boyfriends...

Why do they have to stoop so low?

For me it's easy- especially if you have cheated before- you know the consequences.

End your relationship and chase your new fish, when you're tired you go after a new one, until you get it in your numb skull that every girl/guy is the same at the end of the day.

But Noooooooo, they will go through the stress of sending stupid texts or making calls when their wives/girlfriend/fiances  -Vice Versa -are not around- or even worse wait for them to go to the kitchen/bathroom/ out of the house.

If that isn't bad enough, you have the ones who are so silly to change names on their phones- I mean- do you really think the other person is that dumb?

If he/she was dumb, you wouldn't be with him/her in the 1st place.....(My ex did that once, knowing the kind of person he was, I was far from suprised.)- Had a family friend who found out her boyfriend had saved her name as "Dapo" on his phone- and she's Ibo- LOL!

Lets not even talk about the ones that are married, some even married with kids! and they have the nerve to lie about it.

Or is it the ones that go through the pains of covering their tracks, by cutting off incoming calls, switching their phones off when you're with them, deleting call logs and text messages.

I mean......What do you really GAIN?

I think it's only fair that you consider the other person.

For the fact you have a heart pumping blood,

Literally have a heart.

If you can't control your urges.CHOOSE!!!

Don't do that nonsense of having a wife/girlfriend yet you're sharing intimacy with someone else.

It can be easily done to you, and you better believe- You will NOT like it.

PS: Venting on behalf of my broken hearted friends.

PPS: Birthday is in exactly two weeks.......Nooooooooooo excitement what so ever.

PPPS: I feel numb...............

~ Picture Post ~

I'm still very much alive........work= crazy.......and I'm loving it.

In my spare time between meetings and crazy deadlines, I play around with my Apps on my Ipod. There's one called "Backgrounds"- It lets you download pictures........Very cool pictures too, like this one. 

It's also got sections, and under quotes I found these.................Knock yourself out.

Quite frankly, looking back only slows down life's journey.

Hell yeah!

This is true.

Uhmmmm...........Not me.

I think we should always remember this

True story!

I see my 15year old cousin saying this.........ridiculous if you ask me.

Maybe.........then again, maybe not.

I totally agree with this.

Take the risk people.

Only you!

I believe very strongly in this.

Story of my life.

A lot of people don't know this

Saying nothing of course........

You heard that here!

Tackle them now or suffer for them.

I think so too.....unless ....unless..............never mind.

Smile for me :-)

To be honest, I found this out the hard way.

Work, work work! that's all I've been eating sleeping and drinking.

They say hard work rewards with success- Can't wait!

My birthday comes up at the tail end of June..............I'll be 1year older. Yikes!......

The Mister is also a June baby (cute init?)......and for the 1st time I'm stuck. No birthday gift.

All because he has everything, all the gadgets I can possibly think of, all the video games that make sense, and his wardrobe was recently re-vamped............*sigh

I guess a couple of perfumes and a good day would have to do it. After all It's the thought that counts.....he he he.

Then again maybe not...........

PS: For folks who in anyway like a little bit of fashion......have fun with my sketches on ~Diva's Divine~

PPS: I noticed I'm not the only one guilty of irregular updates...........the world is dragging its force over us all, work, school, business et all. We SHALL Overcome!!!!

Scale of Thoughts

So I passed my French test................Yaaaay!

And no, I did not cheat. I got a well deserved 63/70. I just didn’t take my test until the last batch and by then after listening to different people revise out loud (which reminded me of those annoying girls in secondary school who had the habit of asking questions and reciting the answers in front of class or by the corridor in secondary school-Always making me feel like I was a dunce (Sadly, those questions always came out))

I still haven’t brought out a replacement handbag, I told my beloved sister about the incident, and she screamed, she screamed not because she was worried about me, but because she couldn’t imagine anyone taking away her “investment” of her handbag, No kidding I would scream too if my bag cost more than a plane ticket out of here. After which she turned White (A term I like to use when she forgets she grew up in this country and begins to complain like a Canadian, asking silly questions like how would she survive if she moved home.....*hiss )

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I stepped on a scale on Friday.......my jaw literally dropped.

My new weight had me doing a lot of soul searching. It’s funny the things in life that begin a chain of thoughts. I was a onetime weight loss guru- 6 years ago to be exact. And now I can’t get myself to lose 1 dress size. I’ve come to realize that the reason we lose track in life, fall out of line, or give up is because we lose our sense of DISCIPLINE.

(DISCIPLINE: the training to improve strength or self control.)

Discipline clearly indicates boundaries. Normally as humans we have boundaries for every aspect of our lives- the things we know we should do, the things we shouldn’t do, but we are usually carefree about them. And that’s where the problem is. I am obviously guilty of this crime.  

Tigeress's last post left me with a sour taste in my mouth. Even though it’s no new news that men........and women cheat. I can never understand why people would go through such lengths. Forget what they say “Guys cheat because they can” I say they cheat because the lack self discipline.

Speaking of which, I need to work on my self-discipline...........A married man in my office has been sending me text messages – (semi harmless) every morning and night ,in fact the morning texts wake me up sometimes. The fact that I know my boundaries doesn’t mean I should assume the next person knows his. A series of text messages everyday for over a month is just too much- And so, I showed him where the line is. Let’s hope he stays on his side.

So from now on its Self Discipline ‘r’ Us.

Starting with my eating habits......:-( goodbye biscuits, goodbye processed foods, eating late, and eating more :-( ......I’ll really miss you. My relationship with people (No more Miss Nice- I am putting everybody where they belong), and then my relationship. I happen to be too spoilt, stubborn and ALWAYS right *sheepish face.

When faced with having the right choice as the only choice, you realize that the right choice is indeed very hard to make.                          

                                     ~Sirius~

PS: Why is it that at one point you feel so sure and so strongly about something , then the doubts begin to creep in, and then you ask yourself “Is this what I want?”