Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Scale of Thoughts

So I passed my French test................Yaaaay!

And no, I did not cheat. I got a well deserved 63/70. I just didn’t take my test until the last batch and by then after listening to different people revise out loud (which reminded me of those annoying girls in secondary school who had the habit of asking questions and reciting the answers in front of class or by the corridor in secondary school-Always making me feel like I was a dunce (Sadly, those questions always came out))

I still haven’t brought out a replacement handbag, I told my beloved sister about the incident, and she screamed, she screamed not because she was worried about me, but because she couldn’t imagine anyone taking away her “investment” of her handbag, No kidding I would scream too if my bag cost more than a plane ticket out of here. After which she turned White (A term I like to use when she forgets she grew up in this country and begins to complain like a Canadian, asking silly questions like how would she survive if she moved home.....*hiss )

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I stepped on a scale on Friday.......my jaw literally dropped.

My new weight had me doing a lot of soul searching. It’s funny the things in life that begin a chain of thoughts. I was a onetime weight loss guru- 6 years ago to be exact. And now I can’t get myself to lose 1 dress size. I’ve come to realize that the reason we lose track in life, fall out of line, or give up is because we lose our sense of DISCIPLINE.

(DISCIPLINE: the training to improve strength or self control.)

Discipline clearly indicates boundaries. Normally as humans we have boundaries for every aspect of our lives- the things we know we should do, the things we shouldn’t do, but we are usually carefree about them. And that’s where the problem is. I am obviously guilty of this crime.  

Tigeress's last post left me with a sour taste in my mouth. Even though it’s no new news that men........and women cheat. I can never understand why people would go through such lengths. Forget what they say “Guys cheat because they can” I say they cheat because the lack self discipline.

Speaking of which, I need to work on my self-discipline...........A married man in my office has been sending me text messages – (semi harmless) every morning and night ,in fact the morning texts wake me up sometimes. The fact that I know my boundaries doesn’t mean I should assume the next person knows his. A series of text messages everyday for over a month is just too much- And so, I showed him where the line is. Let’s hope he stays on his side.

So from now on its Self Discipline ‘r’ Us.

Starting with my eating habits......:-( goodbye biscuits, goodbye processed foods, eating late, and eating more :-( ......I’ll really miss you. My relationship with people (No more Miss Nice- I am putting everybody where they belong), and then my relationship. I happen to be too spoilt, stubborn and ALWAYS right *sheepish face.

When faced with having the right choice as the only choice, you realize that the right choice is indeed very hard to make.                          

                                     ~Sirius~

PS: Why is it that at one point you feel so sure and so strongly about something , then the doubts begin to creep in, and then you ask yourself “Is this what I want?”

28 comments:

Shubby Doo said...

congrats on your test...90% is a very good score o!...

about the scale it happens...i've been quite disciplined about my eating habits since the start of lent but the weight did not shift...4 weeks ago i started to exercise an hour about 4 times a week...at work i walk 40mins to and from the shop...in that time i've lost nearly 4kg

RocNaija said...

Lol @ Bags costing more than airplane tickets..

In the old days there was a recession.. :D

O'Dee said...

I need some discipline myself. Been eating everything all in the name of beign preggie.

Cant really say y at 1 point 1 is so sure and the next min one becomes unsure; doubt.

Pink Lips said...

Wow i'm first!!! Yippie, neva bn first b4!!! Congrats on passing ur french test, and pls pls stop geting on d scale, sometimes those scales do have a mind of their own, are you comfortable in ur own skin, for as long as you can ans yes, then i guess ur fine. xx

Pink Lips said...

I just noticed you have blog moderation, now i'm wondering if i was really 1st.

ShonaVixen said...

am i first???

ShonaVixen said...

Damn...might be 30th and screaming First...shame on moi!!
Well done on your French exam!!

Afrobabe said...

Congrats on the french exam…lol @ knowing all the answers by listening to people...
What happened to ur bag? Oh gosh haven't been regular for a while…you got attacked??

As for self discipline..I have been telling myself that regarding food all week…I haven't put on any additional weight but I haven't lost any either..

When in doubt about certain situations it is time to soul search…it's either time to move on or time to accept the situation as it is...

Funms-the rebirth said...

i really enjoyed reading this post......

congrats on passing french... erm... bien? im clueless in french

I feel u on the discipline... ive let go on some of mine and im slowly regaining it back......

doubts do come and when they do, i remind myself y i made that decision in the 1st place

CaramelD said...

Yeah for French test! Goody !

At least you have seen what you want to change in your life, that's half the battle. I know you can do it xxx

simeone said...

yeah..i think its a truth we all have to deal with in life...for everything we believe in and stand for..that belief would be tested..i think that when we really get to know if we believed in the first place..i came to this conclusion some weeks ago..
u r very right on the discipline..

Jaycee said...

Congrats on ur French Test girlie! :) About discipline, you can do it...whatever u set your heart to do is possible.

juiceegal said...

Am i first?????

juiceegal said...

Congrats on passing ur french test........i remeba dose aproko babes in secondary skul...lol
Self discipline...........i rily need it at dis point in my life...ur post got me thinking.....all d best with ur new decisions...im sure u cn make it.

Sulihp said...

i absolutely concor with ur thoughts about discipline. it's all about deciding how to handle the situation and sticking to ur decision. good luck with ur break up (with biscuits and the rest). i feel u on that, it's just hard sometimes...sigh

bob-ij said...

OMG! Why did you do this?? Why did you make me think about my lack o discipline. I work at a store, all I see is CANDYYYYYYYY. I'm now an addict... lol..

You're right though, I can't believe I didn't think about it, it is DISCIPLINE in the form of Mum's cane and shouts. I will make a conscious step in the right direction, hopefully!

x!

Tigeress said...

hey nice post! thanks for mentioning me. hehehehe.

mehn when it comes to married men and single ladies- when i was much younger i used to be so judgemental but now that i'm older and taking Chritianity out- wetin consan me? Let me remove the big logg in my eyes first before i judge next babe/dude. But my issue is deceit. when these married men LIE that they are single- thats just not fair cos it doesnt give the hopefully single lady a choice. the older u get- the higher the chance of getting involved with a married/engaged man cos that is what surrounds u. Luckily I have not had a relationship with one nor have i had sex with one. My solution- stay CLEAR away from them. If married i dont entertain it whatsoever and so far so good. I read books and ask questions a lot and i've come to realize that it only takes the grace of God for a man to be faithful- even men of God fall. Women on the other hand are easily persuaded- no matter how srong u may think u are.

sorry for going on and on. :)

Tigeress said...

As for the doubts- i think its natural. e.g.All my married friends- when i ask them if they had doubts a few nites before the wedding day- they all said yes. I dont know what u're having doubts about- but i can only suggest u pray. I'm currently going thru a lot of doubts/confusion and all i can pray for is God's will and direction.

wordmerchant said...

congrats on the test, you did good :)

Dicipline..something i need in my own agendas, yes, they are plenty. I went off the diet and the weight is creeping back up..am back on it.

As for second thoughts..i believe they serve a greater purpose, look deeper, you'll find the answers

aloted said...

congrats!!!!!!

Tha BossMack TopSoil said...

congrats babygurl

Rita said...

Congrats Dear,

Married man had better stay on his side...

Me I need discipline to take water...

Muse said...

Congrats on the French test! Never, ever let me take one of 'em.

We all need some discipline...I know I do.

Doubt? Well, without it we wouldn't really be complete, no? Doubt, like fear, is one of those things that always reminds us that we have choices to make, and that we WILL be responsible for those choices.

Lyrically speaking said...

congrats on passing your French test, mes compliments :)
first timer here, enjoyed reading your posts

flabby said...

lol- its always hard to do the right thing!!

and discipline is called 'discipline' for a reason!!its haaard:(

Chi-Chi said...

mehn, i am seriously with you on self disciple most especially on food

it's just annoying how we keep adding!

Tairebabs said...

congrats on your passing ur test. I am learning Spanish now and I know how much work goes into learning a foreign language. lol @Self Discipline ‘r’ Us. I remember when I first came to the states, I just kept eating everything in sight! I have always loved to eat and my metabolism i guess is pretty high but my lack of discipline started to show within months, I knew i had to get disciplined fast.

Brown Sugar Babes said...

hey
congrats on your french test o!

I so agree with you on Discipline and boundries. There are a number of areas i seriously need this......eating habits being high up.

this is like a kick in the butt for me and a hopefully will be a nudge in the right direction...