Friday, June 25, 2010

Ramble State Of Mind

So I am not your average girl.

I don't care about a lot of things. (my friends don't bother with me anymore)
I do some odd things that contradict the unspoke rules in life.
Sometimes I forgive the people who have done the most evil things to me in all of my lifetime,
and yet have a hard time letting go of a random person who decided to let her selfish acts scar me.
(Maybe because I obliterate the evil doers in my head. Just saying)

What's the point of special days when sometimes they only cause pain?

Sometimes I really wish I had the chance to meet certain people differently.

Of late, the last 2-3 years to be precise; I noticed I've become too emotional for my liking.
Too emotional that I cry so easily at the most trivial emotional rifts.
(I really have to stop that)
I hate being emotionally drained. It kills my soul.

As good as life is, things happen and I find myself in "the zone"

Things I do not like.

Things that leave a bitter taste in my mouth.

And I just want to be left alone.

Most of the time I wish I could erase those things, sadly I don't see that happening during my stay on planet earth.

I always believe there is a reason why "that thing" happened to me.

Leaving me to analyze and learn my lesson *KMT*

These things leave me with two choices.

Either be a big girl, not cry and suck it up.

Or, be a girl and cry a river.........

Then there's the subconscious telling me that it could have been much worse, so be glad.

*Rolling my eyes*

Listening to A.keys "Try sleeping with a broken heart"
Something I am very familiar with.
It hurts like hell that's for sure.

Moving on................

A couple of quotes and pictures to have you saying hmmmmmm.......

Hell, it's NOT okay!!!!

I Know right......

You don't say......

I always knew that!

Or Not.......

This one is for me......

And you too.....

You're damn right.

Aaaaaaah (lol)........Not sure about the faces on these figures though. Are you sure it's not the other way round? *wink*

It's my birthday next week, yay!

I'm sure to close June in a fabulous way...........I'm gonna get me a mind, body, spirit and soul over haul as a gift to myself.

A new ~Sirius~ is brewing.

Have a nice weekend people.

We Love you M.J..................Rest in Peace


Anonymous said...

Great post! Love the quirkyness and the posters. Keep being You.

Sugarking said...

Can't wait for the new Sirius!! Nice post babes.

Gee said...

very loveley post---interesting too!
I liked the one bout good things falling apart for better things to come--love it!
happy bday to u in advance!!!

Jaycee said...

Big girls cry too *smiles*

Myne Whitman said...

The posters are really classic, the good and better or problem solved got me laughing. Hmmm...

Fabulo-la said...

Yea, big girls do cry. Into their pillows though.

2cute4u said...

Loved the post so much..
Get your hating the emotional side of you and your hurting and all..
Sweetie, embrace it, shows that you're really evolving and the now, makes you a better person.. Wishing you a happy birthday!

doll said...

aw...i like the pictures...esp the one day someone will make you realize why it never worked out with someone else part...

What is the exact date...invite me for the parry o!

Anonymous said...

" birthday next week..." to become how old? (oops, am not to ask that of a lady abi?)

mizchif said... it just me or is this post some kind of coded sumtin.....

Happy Birthday in advance and welcome to the new Sirius, i hope we like her just as much as this one now.
Hope you are well babes.

Take care.

Funms-the rebirth said...

I loved this post....makes me wanna go to my blog and write my heart ok hun?

Where is the birthday parrrry?

And those quotes made me go hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Lara said...

Your state of mind, seem so much like mine at the moment. Happy birthday in advance

tunrayo said...

happy birthday in advance sweetie.

i feel you on the emotional part, i've gotten so emotional these past few weeks its eeky. but i still cant cry (bad tear ducts or something)

Muse said...

it's good to feel this way sometimes...keeps you in touch with life. without it's ups and downs, life is just a mirage.