Huh?

“Oh Shit!” you have got to be kidding me, I have an hour and a half to make it to the mister’s, pick up my forgotten package and head back to the airport. I hope I don’t miss my flight……what was I thinking, how could I have been so forgetful, then again how couldn’t I and now I can’t get through to him, Tsk! What else can go wrong!  My car is in the parking lot to be moved  tomorrow, I have my spare keys on me as always. At this point L.Hamilton has nothing on my driving, it’s a Sunday evening thank God no traffic, still no luck getting through, these flipping networks should be burned. Arrrgh!

I pull up outside and run into the compound, We had said our physical goodbyes about 3 hours ago so I guess this was a bonus, back door was open a good sign, music blaring from his room, I have 40 more minutes to make it back to the airport or I miss my trip (Lord knows my shop therapy is long overdue I can’t afford to wait one more day) Silly me, I had left my mother’s letters and cheques on the table in the heat of hot kisses goodbye and I’ll miss you like crazy, going away for 3 whole weeks! This was a first ever since we met. “Babe……….Babe?” looking through the pile of books and magazines, he must have seen it and moved it, “Babe, did you see my………” walking to his room, door ajar music flowing out I shove the door and I stand still for the next 5 seconds, it felt more like 10 minutes………my man had his tongue down his  Exs throat!

Of course a million and one things start going through my head. I snap out of my trance, they feel foolish, I totally ignore them thinking to myself my trip couldn’t have come at a much better time. I ask for my envelope and leave without saying one word more. I hop into my car and do Louis 2times over.  Along the way Tainted Love starts blaring through my phone- it’s his ringtone by the way, I thought to myself, is this dude for real? My sister was in for trouble, she’ll probably never fly with me again after I lash out at her.

I’ve always been skeptical about guys and their Exes, especially if they were together at foundation points in their lifetime, so I try to stay away from such guys. I know the power I have over my ex (who has began hounding me again- dude get the message!). If I wanted to I could wreck any relationship he has, that’s how deep we were, But I chose the path of walking out and not looking back, life is a lot easier without so much drama. I only feel sad and sorry for the other girl because he still calls and begs to get back with me, “So, what is she to you?" I say to him….”Your Substitute?”………..As my mind wandered I thought to myself -Is that what I have become to him?

NO!!!!!!

A Substitute, not the real thing, because he can’t have the real thing for some odd reason or the other, Hells No! I didn’t sign up to be his substitute and I definitely ain’t staying as one. Ever since I found out she existed- after we had been together for 6 months I never really felt comfortable, I mean who keeps their ex out of the picture for that long, all because your new love will never understand the relationship that was, or rather still is, seeing that their tongues were interlocked a couple of minutes ago.

Getting out of the car, 19 more minutes to go and the boarding gates would be closed, my sister had been calling me and I couldn’t pick up her call, all for the fear that I might breakdown on the phone, running all the way I make it on time with 5 minutes to spare, I find my seat and my sister who scowls at me, but that’s the least of my problems right now, I sit and the river begins to flow……….my sister calls my name and for a while I don’t respond, I just let the tears flow then she shakes me calling my name a little bit louder………….”Sleepy head, I’m going to Segi’s, pick me up at 5 on your way to the airport my stuff is in the car"

"Oh Shit!" You have got to be kidding me.........